You need to support those you love and who love you and quit trying to gain support from those who don’t!
You need to show respect for yourself by demanding loyalty. If it is not given, …simply walk away! Would you expect less for someone you love? NO! Then don’t expect less for yourself!
YOU put yourself into precarious situations and then don’t want to hurt someone else’s feelings, so instead you play “the fool”. It is difficult to love, respect or admire a fool. You are NOT a fool—quit playing one!